| I don't understand the question and I won't respond to it. | Date: 07.16.10 - 11:47am
Music: Arrested Development - Shock and Aww
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Work, Movies
I'm trying to get as much done at work as I can before Kay and I leave for California. Which means I'm getting pretty burnt out on it. I think I'll get a majority of it done before I leave.
We're leaving soon. Meaning 4 days and I'm already getting nervous about flying. If my time off wasn't so limited, I'd be tempted to drive. Hopefully my excitement over how much fun Comic Con is going to be will overpower the fear.
Nikki's wedding was last weekend. It was fun and she was so beautiful!
That's all I've been up to lately. I think the very reason for my sporatic updates is because my life is just that boring. Summed up in 3 paragraphs.
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| | | DID YOU REALLY PUT HER LIVER IN THE MAILBOX?! | Date: 05.23.10 - 1:25pm
Music: Scream (HELL YEA)
Filed in: Daily, Work
So I had big plans this weekend which included cleaning the house so that I didn't have to right before we leave for MN. I was also going to finish this Google Analytics script I've been working on...but I haven't even touched it since Friday night.
I'm currently watching Scream and waiting for the Lost finale.
I guess I could do a little work on the script with the 4½ hours I have left until the "pre-show" starts.
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| | | For Korina | Date: 02.03.10 - 9:16am
Music: Psychological Recovery - Hans Zimmer
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Work
What I'm doing. Well...I'm freaking out about having to do this huge report and trying to catch up on work the best I can. That's what I'm doing. So there.
P.S. Thanks alot for the new header the site had for a while.
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| | | Working | Date: 01.04.09 - 9:58pm
Music: This Town Your Grave - Innerpartysystem
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Work, Site Updates
Although you cannot necessarily see them, I have made substantial updates to the site. Most of them are making navigation of the admin better and more functional for me. There is one front end adjustment I made, and that was adding a anti spam function to the site. Whenever you go to add a comment you will now be asked to solve a simple math problem.
When I am finished with all of the back end edits, I will be installing my blogging 'software' for Nikki on her site I have set up for her. I hope she likes it.
I was finally able to add these because I have been off work since Wednesday and that has certainly refreshed my brain. While I was off of work, I had Korina, Nikki, and Kevin here keeping me company and playing the crap out of my new game Left 4 Dead.
I will be heading back to work tomorrow. Boo-urns.
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| | | Round and Round | Date: 09.13.08 - 6:41pm
Music: Black Hole Sun - Soundgarden
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Family, Work
My Dad is back in the hospital. It appears as though they removed his "pipe" that he used to inject antibiotics too early. He went back yesterday to have them put it back in and they decided to keep him. I'm waiting for my sister to call me back and let me know exactly how bad he's gotten and how long they will be keeping him. I really wish he would get better. Every time I see him it breaks my heart because he is in so much pain.
On a lighter note, work has been extremely busy for the last two weeks and that has really helped pass the time. We are getting paid three times in October so that will hopefully help a lot with the wedding plans.
I will be getting ready to send out the invitations around the end of December. My sister is coming up here at the end of September for a wedding show and hopefully then I will pick out my photographer, my florist, and DJ. Then I will be nearly done. (Thank God) Then it's off to find me a dress and go with my bridesmaids to pick out theirs.
I think I'm going to give them the option to pick whatever dress they like as long it is in the same hues of purple.
I feel like the only girl that does not want to plan her wedding. I haven't been planning this since I was little and I have no clue what I want. I know if I didn't have a ceremony/reception and just eloped I would regret it later. I'll just be happy when it is finally done and I am enjoying spending time with my friends, family, and new husband at the reception.
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| | | I am disappointed | Date: 01.14.08 - 2:55pm
Music: Belive - The Bravery
Filed in: Daily, Work, School, Site Updates
While doing this wonderful site redesign, I just noticed that I only made 1 post in 2007. According to my yearly archives, the most posts I have done in one year is 62. I'm going to try to beat that amount this year. Let's hope.
Since the last post in April of '07, I have moved back to Des Moines. While here I finished IHCC, found a job, and purchased a house. We've been living in it for several months.
My job title is Website Assistant and I love it. I've been here about 8 months.
I'm trying to come up with some new content and other features to make your visit to my little corner of the WWW a little more exciting.
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| | | A list of stuff that has/will happen(ed) | Date: 10.18.06 - 1:15pm
Music: Cherry Waves - Deftones
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Family, Music, Concerts, Work, School
I just figured out that the new Family Guy game came out yesterday so I ordered it since no where in town had a copy of it for PSP.
This last weekend I went to Worlds of Fun with Dustin, his mom, her foster child (Caleb), Nikki, K, & Dale. I had a lot of fun until the haunted house then I was just scared.
Next week is my 23rd birthday and I got 4 sets of concert tickets out of it. Holy cow! I've got:
25th (My birthday) - HGB, Reggie & The Full Effect, Cute Is What We Aim For, & Dave Mellio -- From Nikki Dawn.
31st - Brand New, Dashboard Confessional -- From teh K
Nov 14th - Billy Talent, Rise Against, & Thursday -- From Nikki Dawn
Nov 26th - Panic! At The Disco, Jack's Mannequin, & Bloc Party -- From Heather
Which reminds me how far behind my concert list is on this site. And I need to put my old tickets into my scrapbook.
I start my new job at Target on the 24th. Yay for training. Then I have to tell them I need 7 days off because I will be out of town.
Last term I got 3 Bs and 1 A for my final grades.
My Aunt Ruth died 2 days ago and I have her visitation tonight. It really sucks because she was one of the few people who talked to me at the family get togethers. Plus she is one of the few that has actually visited our relatives in Sweden and knew a bunch of the prayers she always said before we ate.
Ps: Nightmare Before Christmas SDTK (the 24th), Deftones - Saturday Night Wrist (31st), My Chemical Romance - The Black Parade (24th)
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| | | Finals Week | Date: 08.14.06 - 7:34pm
Music:
Filed in: Daily, Concerts, Work, School
It's my favorite time of the year again, finals. Since my classes are online I don't have to take a final test in my classes, but everything is due on Wednesday. Let me tell you, am I ever behind. I've got a bunch of assignments that aren't finished. That is what I've been doing for the past week, weekend, and today. Will I finish it all? Probably not.
I figured since I'm taking a break that I could at least update my site since it's been another complete month. What has happened to me in the past month? Nothing much.
I'm still not even completely moved out of the apartment. D and I are still together and only an hour and a half apart. I see him on weekends that we don't have anything going on.
My sister had her baby on the 3rd. His name is Tyler John and he hates bath time(which just happened).
My project next week is to locate a job since I don't have fall classes until the 28th. My Aunt might be getting me a job at the blood clinic where she works. I would only have to work from 5:00-8:00 every night for $6.00 an hour. Not much, but it's something.
The last weekend in July we went to Warped Tour. It was really hot. More later since it's time to get back to work.
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| | | I'm so lazy. | Date: 01.05.06 - 3:37pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Work, Site Updates
I have to be the laziest person on the face of this earth. I put this layout up in what I believe was October and just now I'm finishing the formatting for the text and putting up the rest of the archives. I guess when I finally get that all straightened out I can work on a new winter-ish layout because Korina informed me, "It isn't fall anymore". I'm aware of that little tid-bit, I just really like autumn is all.
Since this is my first post of the New Year I guess I should include what my resolution was. Seeing as how I am a female in my 20s it's not surprising I picked the 'loose weight' resolution. For some reason this time I think I can do this. Let's all hope together. Since it is the New Year I am also on a job search. I promised Dustin I would get a job come January and stop living off him. I've found a couple potential jobs that don't require a degree. They are mostly receptionist jobs which, I think I can handle. It's quite a decent bit of cash per hour and I don't have to work all that much. It's also doing stuff I don't mind doing anyway, like typing and filing. I was also considering a management position in food service, which I think I could do with a moderate amount of training. I already had 3 years experience with food service management at The Beach. My only doubt is that I worked there 2 years before I became a manager, so i knew what I was doing. If I just jump in somewhere how am I going to answer questions?
I would love to do Web Design freelance, but I don't have the resources or people skills to get myself jobs. I guess if I worked another job for a bit I could collect enough money to pay for some advertising and such. I can always work on the 'people skills' part for free. The point of this post was supposed to warn you that things might look odd or mispositioned while I'm moving things around, so bare with me.
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| | | 1st day in Des Moines. | Date: 08.24.05 - 7:47pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Work, Movies
So this is my first whole day up at my new apartment and I slept most of the day. Which is actually surprising because we also got our cable internet today. Sorry to Nikki and Korina who were both talking to me on msn when I mysteriously passed out.
I am currently trying to find the movie Saw so that I may aquire it but it's proving to be difficult.
I've got some pictures from Tasia's last day at the beach, her new tattoo and Stephanie's brand new nose piercing.
Dustin is currently trying to make me dinner because I refuse to put the laptop down and help :D :D
The air conditioning in this place is insane. We have the thermostat set at 78 but it insists on making it like 70 degrees in here. My toes are in a constant state of freezing.
Ok here are the pictures as links because I don't want to take the time to resize them.
Tasia's Tattoo
Stephanie's Nose Ring
Dance party in the Beach parking lot
Dance party again
Again with the dance party
Me, Stephanie, Tasia, Connie, and Morgan
My new baby kitten Scott
Scott again
Ok, I'm done with the pictures.
I love and miss everyone in Ottumwa and Dubuque!
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| | | Reading... | Date: 08.01.05 - 6:37pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Work, Site Updates
I'm currently working on a new layout. Not like I have a lot of traffic here anyway. I'm thinking about adding some content but I don't know what yet. I'm heading out to Wal-Mart tonight to get some canvas because I feel like painting. So I think I'll work a little on the layout and then paint a little and see what I come up with. I got a hair cut and dye. If I can take a decent picture I'll post one. Think of anything I could put up for content leave a comment.
I'm re-reading the first Harry Potter books and taking notes. I am also reading a book Stephanie recommended to me called "The Golden Compass" by Phillip Pullman. So far I really like it and couldn't put it down when it was time for bed last night. She also let me borrow her book called "Sabriel" by Garth Nix. I haven't started that one yet since it's hers and the other one she borrowed from the library under her name for me. I roughly have 2 weeks to finish it. I also got the book version of "Constantine" with the movie. Woo books. At least I'll have plenty to do when I move. I need to remember to finish Stephanie's book before she goes away to college (boo!).
Everyone is leaving work early to go away to college. I am going to make the hour drive from Des Moines back here to work. Not like there are going to be a bunch of days left anyway. School for the children starts soon. Poor kids...not.
Barb came up to me at work and asked me what diet I was on...Should I be insulted I was apparently noticeably overweight or happy that I look as if I've lost weight?
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| | | Catch27.com | Date: 06.27.05 - 9:35am
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Work
I'm sleepy and have to work in 1 hour, but other than that I'm ok. I finally got 2 days off in a row. That hasn't happened in quite some time. I finally signed up for catch27.com or whatever. So everyone can stop sending me e-vites.
I'm so glad it's almost July. Then I get to go to walmart with a big group of 20 year olds to buy Harry Potter.
WOOT!!
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| | | Staff party-ness | Date: 06.14.05 - 6:39pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Work
Now, on Sunday June 19th is the Beach staff party. Not only is it the first staff party it is also Tasia's 20th birthday. The party was instigated by her and she says if your coming you have to bring her a present. If you would like to come they are inforcing the one person per employee this year so you've gotta find yourself an employee. Good luck. :)
Today is Nikki's 21st birthday so buy her a drink!
I made my goal of 80 hours on this paycheck...well I kinda over shot it by 6 hours but oh well. WooT! Money rocks.
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| | | List Thingy | Date: 06.03.05 - 7:04pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Work
Ok...so no updates for a while, but I have a good explination. The Beach opened last weekend and I had to work my ass off to get the kitchen ready to go. Now that it's open I can take a breather...for the most part. My co-manager has taken off to Paris. She will be in Paris until she comes back on the 23rd. (HAVE FUN STEPHANIE!) I told her to take pictures of hot guys for the week she will be in England. WooT! English guys r hawt.
FOR NIKKI:
Total number of books I own: around 100.
Last Book I Bought: Harry Potter Year 5
Last Book I Read: Harry Potter Year 4
Five Books that mean A Lot To Me:
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban - J.k. Rowling
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire - J.k. Rowling
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - J.k. Rowling
Haunting - Heather Graham
The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
I must now tag someone; I choose Korina
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| | | PINK | Date: 04.27.05 - 2:23pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Music, Concerts, Work
I've become depressed and happy all in about 10 minutes today. First off I was moping because I had recently listened to some North* and let it actually hit me that they were done. *sob*. Then I headed on over to my other favorite band's site..Say Anything and saw that they finally posted when they were going to be coming back through Iowa.
I would just like to add as a side note that when planning out the tour stops they should really bust out a map of the good 'ol U S of A because they go from Kansas City, MO to Minneapolis,MN to Des Moines,IA. Nothing like bouncin around the midwest instead of going a straight line. However, I am very happy they will be back at the House of Bricks...even though it has moved to it's new location.
I purchased my Pointfest tickets along with Nikki and Kevin's last night. I used the $2.50 print it option so I knew I would hold them in my hand asap. I scanned the Say Anything pictures Nikki brought me so I could post them on my concerts page. The question now it when will I update that?
Kay has a new layout. *pimp* It's really ..really pink.
Now I must go get ready to go to work. Have fun! *muah*
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| | | Are you happy? | Date: 04.26.05 - 11:19am
Music: Patient Mental - Mudvayne
Filed in: Daily, Music, Concerts, Work
Did you know that the Happy? video is on Fuse everyday during this week at around 11:00. Yea. They have a set playlist that they play all week and then they change it. All day every hour on Mtv2 they are 'unleashing' the new System of a Down song 'B.Y.O.B.'...yea it sucks. He screams the first line like a little girl.
On a side note you can go to Fuse.tv and vote 'LOSE IT' on the 50 cent video and the Yin Yang Twins...cuz they suck. However, vote 'KEEP IT' for Acceptance.
Off the topic of music videos. I've been having a shitty week in my head. I hate this. I feel like I should go to the doctor for it, but I'm afraid he will give me something that wil make me...well..not me. I don't want to lose who I am and become a someone that doesn't care about anything.
I should be at work, but I'm so burned out on that place I can't even think about going there without getting a stomach ache. I still have a crap-load to do in outdoor before I can even open. I think I will get ready and go in at 1:00.
The concert I want to go to is about 2 weeks away and I still haven't purchased the tickets. I really should get on it before they are sold out and I cry. I don't know who all is going. The only one that has confirmed is Nikki.
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| | | Ego boosties | Date: 03.22.05 - 11:42am
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Music, Concerts, Work, Movies
I should be at work right now cleaning the kitchen, but I'm having far too much fun enjoying numerous days off in a row. I just realized that my trip to Chicago is less than a week away now. I feel like I'm not prepared because I keep thinking it's forever away from now. I'm printing off some bus routes and train schedules.
Everyone isn't going to the same Warped Tour show this year. I'm going to Bonner Springs, KS for Billy Talent, Nikki is going to Tinley Park, IL with Kevin, and I'm not quite sure where Korina is going.
I've lost my Napoleon Dynamite DVD and it is really upsetting that I didn't notice it until just now. I loaned it to Connie once and got it back...now I don't remember what I did with it. I have the distinct feeling I loaned it to someone else and didn't get it back yet.
Feeling down about yourself? Try an ego boost!
Sam, Pete, and Joe -Link Removed-
Eddie and Adam -Link Removed-
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| | | Work sucks, quit. | Date: 03.05.05 - 2:44pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Concerts, Work
I have a full day of work ahead of me. I work till 8:00 tonight, like I do every freaking Saturday since September. Yuck. 12-8. Super yuck. But what is keeping me in the 'alright' mood bracket and not plunging into the 'bad freaking mood' catagory? The fact that the Say Anything concert is TOMORROW and I couldn't be more excited for anything!! Plus I have Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday off work next week which means I get to stay at my house.
What does that mean? I get to clean 90% of my time off. Since my mom won't clean anything at the house and I haven't had the time in a while you can only imagine it's current state. I cleaned the 2nd floor bathroom today before work, but that is a small dent in my chores next week.
What else? ..I finally sold my friggin car which means I have some $$ for the Chicago trip. Plus I get paid on the 10th which is a week before my trip to Kansas City. Then I get another paycheck before the big Chi-town trip so I should be good to go. I got my 1/4 of the hotel room paid to Dustin today which makes me feel like I've made a small dent in my debts. :)
Guess where we are staying?!! We are staying at a friggin Hilton hotel. OMG. It's going to be scary because we don't exactly dress anything like people who normally stay at the Hilton. For right now I'm not even trying to think about who our measly $330 is going to. LOL SORRY PARIS! Nikki looked it up and our room for 4 nights is $4000!!! Oh...my...god. Who would pay that kind of money to sleep?!
Random thought: If people insist on calling here they need to first learn proper english and put their teeth in their mouth. I couldn't understand that lady that just called for anything. I kept having to say 'excuse me?'.
Nikki's big pimpin with her cell phone sales.
She's trying to talk me into a haunted tour of chicago. I mean it sounds fun and interesting, but I am the biggest friggin chicken. I had a bad dream last night even. I'm 21 years old and I have a bad dream every other night almost. Lord. So if Nikki wants me to have bad dreams and doesn't care if I dance on her head during the tour..I'll go.
I've learned a lesson. If I update the comments stop...hmmm interesting.
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| | | I'm on fire! | Date: 02.08.05 - 6:08pm
Music: The Future Freaks Me Out - Motion City Soundtrack
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Family, Music, Work
WHO DOESN'T LOVE THIS FRIGGIN SONG! omg
"I'M ON FIRE AND NOW I THINK I'M READY TO BUST A MOVE CHECK IT OUT I'M ROCKIN STEADY TO THE BEAT IN MY HEAD THAT GOES OH E OH!!!"
Anyway..I'm updating for Nikki. I'm trying to make a new layout with either Meg Ryan or Katie Holmes. They rock. Not only did I cry for 2 whole hours today because I watched the series finale of Dawson's Creek today, but there is also 2 Meg Ryan/Tom Hanks movies this weekend on TBS. That is uber exciting. Who doesn't love "Sleepless in Seattle" and "You've Got Mail". My favorite Meg movie is "Addicted to Love".
I get two days off a week now. That is very exciting! I haven't had two days off each week in a long friggin time. I'm not a workaholic by any means, I just feel obligated to take up as much slack here as I can. If someone can't work they come find me. I haven't had a day off since Sunday January 30th. That's a long time. Oh well I get Friday off and I want to go see The Wedding Date. I even had to come in to work early today to deliver school passes. Woot!
I'm saving money like mad for my two trips in March. How's it going?! Not very good. I have to drop some bills before I can save any money. I'm thinking of putting my cell aside for a while and not using it except for traffic emergencies. I text message and send pictures too much. And don't say 'just quit' because it's not that easy for me. I have NO WILL POWER. You know how many times I've tried to start dieting and exercising? Many...within the past 2 weeks even.
I'm lazy. Which can be brought back around to the fact that I haven't done the new layout I promised myself that I would finish by yesterday. I don't even have an image done. Yes, that's the hardest part, but I haven't been inspired what-so-ever lately.
*Wishing that it was 8:00* I miss my home. My migranes are getting worse which leads me to fear there may be something very wrong in my head. My family is prone to cancer...and a lot of cancer at that. Everyone in my family has gotten at least 2 types of cancer. That is why I fear there may be something wrong up there. If there is...can they do anything about it? I mean if there was a choice to either have the surgery and be a vegetable or leave it be and die. I would choose the latter. Who wants to be a burden?
I worry about my mom as well. If she doesn't start taking better care of herself I'll loose her. I don't know how to get her to do anything. I know I'll loose her one day, but I don't want it to be before her time. Any suggestions?
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| | | It's not a tooma | Date: 02.01.05 - 7:16pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Music, Concerts, Work
Sitting at work.. :O I know! What else do I do? Well I'm very surprised but I think I might actually pull off this Chicago trip. Were going the 27-30th in March. Thank god the pool will be closed then for painting.
Note to Korina: I think Connie is going to take Fridays and she can't work for me Thursday... :(
Did you know that my head is going to explode?
Friday night there was a bad accident at the end of my road. Someone went in the giant ditch with all the trees. I finally found out who it was today. Not that I know them, just nice to know. In a round about way I know the driver. It's Jarred and Brett's sister from the beach. Everyone is fine. Thank god.
I saw Unwritten Law 'live' today. It was on Fuse's 7th Ave Drop. They started off with one of my favorite songs. I won't judge them too horribly since this is the only time I've seen them perform, but the lead singer sucks live. I'll give him slack in case he might have had a cold or been drinking the night before. His voice was kinda scratchy and it didn't sound very good. Nothing like how good he sounds on the cd track.
I was afraid you all might have thought I died. I should have posted last night when I was upset. I fell into a girl mood where I was really emo about everything. I slightly over-reacted to something at work and then we got really busy. If you know me, then you know that I'm not good around a large amount of people. I do think however, that I filled out approx 45 pass cards in record time yesterday. I was flipping out.
Tonight...not one customer came through that door.
I'm going to get out of here semi early tonight if these people from the swim meet would just leave.
Wow..Blue Sky Goodbye emailed me back on MySpace. Aww that was nice of him.
Anyway should be getting to work so I can get out of here! Comment.
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| | | School parties suck. | Date: 01.22.05 - 6:56pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Work
Sitting at work on another busy 'school party' night. I don't know what is so appealing about bringing your kids here to swim when it's in the negative temperatures out. Lordy. "Come on sweetie. I'm going to drop you off at the beach so you will leave me alone. When I pick you up with your wet hair and wonder the next day why you have a horrible cold I just might scold myself."
We all had a conversation about the fact we all wish that summer would come quicker because it's better in the summer. It is. It's warmer and I don't have to deal with this admissions garbage. I don't mind having a easy job in the winter, but I do adore working in the kitchen. Sierra made me sad because she started talking about how bad she wanted cheeseballs. So do I! And chicken strips. Mmmm yummy. I miss bossing my kitchen workers around. That was the funnest part. Alas, I think that it will be just me in the kitchen this year. Korina thinks she's gone for good, and we won't know till she asks faithanne...I don't blame u if you don't kay...she's kinda intimidating.
I want to go home after this and play Warcraft III LAN game with my boyfriend.
Boe came to visit me yesterday with Jen. WooT! It was nice to see Boe.
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| | | I'm going to ride this out. | Date: 01.20.05 - 7:23pm
Music: Save Me - Unwritten Law
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Work, Movies
Thanks for your concern guys. It does honestly make me feel better, but this is just something I don't want to talk about. Not right now anyway. Maybe when I get over the overwhelmingness of it all I might talk to you.
Overwhelmingness...is that a word? You know what? It is because I used it.
The 2nd swim meet of the week is drawing to a close and I'm getting ready to do major damage control for the next 1/2 hour when everyone clears out. Korina came to see me earlier and brought me my cds so I could listen to my angry girl music.
I finally got the computer in the office up and working. It's a supa fast machine now. I just have to string the network cord to it so they can use the net tomorrow. I think they are swimming tomorow morning again, I might come if I drag my ass out of bed. I want to lan game tonight. It's no fun with just me and Dustin.
I beat X-men legends and now I have nothing to play. I got really far in my Silent Hill 4 game and saved in a bad spot with no health a couple months ago so now I can't play off that save. Poo on me. I should just sit down and do the graphic for my new skin..alas I cannot convince myself that it will turn out decent. I need some confidence.
I really want to go buy/rent Harold and Kumar go to White Castle but I don't have the $$ for it in my budget. I liked it in the theater...a lot and was excited when I found out it was out on DVD.
Save Me (lyrics)
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| | | Drift | Date: 01.19.05 - 5:18pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Work
Ok I feel like an idiot for reasons I rather not talk about. I am sitting at work and somehow even though I went swimming with 2 of my bosses this morning and got 1 hour and 1/2 of extra work and I still feel as if I'm THE most hated person here. I can't explain why I can go from content at work to fear again, but it happens all the time. I can't wait till summer starts and I can go in the kitchen and hide. Then I don't have to face the fact that someone in here may hate me. Would you say I'm paranoid or is it justified?
I don't know what to do with myself anymore. It feels like the more I try to do right and make friends I seem to mess it up and push everyone away. What I thought was going to be a new friend to hang out with has panned out horribly.
I come here to pour my heart out so I don't go insane and when I finish I feel like an even bigger jackass than when I started. I feel useless...am I the only one? I've noticed I have nothing to offer my friends. I am the most boring person in the world.
I just keep trying to grasp something that is dissolving before my eyes. I can do nothing to stop the deterioration. It's just hard to accept something that I loved so much is gone. Vague? I know. You aren't supposed to understand. Then everyone might try to console me and tell me it's not over but were kidding ourselves. I don't want to be consoled. I just want to mourn the loss and move on.
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| | | Can you taste the chaos? | Date: 01.18.05 - 7:38pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Concerts, Work
I have the hicups. I am currently sitting at work waiting for the 50-60 odd people to leave before I can clean up after the swim meet we just had. It's going to be a mess in there. I feel like a dumbass because I wore sweat pants and a sweat shirt(always the sexiest look possible). I look like I weigh 300lbs and rolled out of bed.
I may get a decent amount of hours on this paycheck considering the fact that I had to miss 2 days. WooT! Go weather! I left Connie a note on her time clock in hopes that she will be able to work for me on March 16th so that I can go to the Taste of Chaos concert! WooT! If not I don't know what I will do. I may have to work. I'm hoping that is the week they drain the pool and we aren't open. I would be so happy! I don't expect Connie to be able to work for me because she is a music director at church and the 16th is on Wednesday. I think Nikki and I would both sob if I wasn't able to go. (She bought the ticket for me). There are a couple concerts next month that I would like to attend but I just can't pull that kind of cash.
Ok, the lobby just went from being really loud to really freakin quiet so I am assuming everyone left. I shall go begin my cleaning so that I'm not here until 10:00 tonight.
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| | | Money management. | Date: 01.14.05 - 9:48pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Work
Somehow I paid the bills that I needed from this paycheck and it's the smallest paycheck I've gotten in 7 months. My astonishment comes from the fact that I can't seem to pay bills when I get paid my normal amount which is 3 times as much as this last paycheck. Why? Because I spend it on worthless stuff. I've been trying to be responsible with my money because I noticed I made $6,000 some dollars last year and have nothing to show for it. I could have bought my old car right out for that yet I didn't manage to pay the $2500 I had left on the loan. I'm horrible at money management. I've put money in my savings and plan to only add to it and not take away from it unless it's to place it on bills or to pay off some of my new car loan. I want to save enough money in the coming year or so to put a decent downpayment on a house.
Speaking of buying the house, I think Dustin and I are moving to Des Moines next year. Thats scary that the rest of my life is starting.
I need to get my web design out and going. I've gotta fill out some tax papers and such before I can. I may also take some of my savings and buy ads in news papers and such. If I wasn't such a chicken shit I would go on the radio and tv with commercials.
Mike at work is trying to convince me I need to pack up my friends and go on a road trip before 'we grow up without experiencing anything'. I would love to go on a road trip but I just can't take that kind of time off work. Hell, I have enough problems getting one day off to go to concerts.
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| | | Snow days. | Date: 01.12.05 - 8:11pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Concerts, Work
Ok I finally got the church's website to work properly. I didn't post it to the main page out of fear Kendall won't like it. I'll give Nikki the direct link so she can show it to him and I can get his opinion. I've got to get Phpbb downloaded so I can set up a message board for the church as well. I want to make a new layout for this site but I don't know who to feature. I was going to go geek and do something Harry Potter but I'll wait until July for that. :D :D
I haven't been to work in 2 days. I prolly will have to work tomorrow though. I don't mind, I do like staying home though. I don't really like the beach right now. I don't like the feeling of the thin ice under my feet there.
I'm going to scan the pictures for my concerts page and get all that up and working soon. I don't know how long that is going to take me.
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| | | YOU'RE FIRED! | Date: 01.10.05 - 6:30pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Work, Movies
Ok so the freezing rain started at about 6:00, so what ensued was this:
1) Children's swim team was released early
A)A flood of children came into the office to use the phone
B)Between the calls I'm RECIEVING calls from various people telling me it's getting bad out.
2) Amy calls and talks to me for 10 minutes stating over and over again that "It's too bad out and I'm not going to try to come in...but I want to work...but it's not worth it...but I want to work."
3) A flood of parents come in and rant to Debbie (the head of swim team) that its freezing and she needs to cancel. Where is Debbie? In here with me. So there are 6 children, Debbie, and about 4 parents standing in the office doorway.
4) I had Dustin drive all the way into town to bring me food cuz I thought I would be here until 8:00
5) Apparently this is going to be another week I don't work..and I really need the friggin money.
Ok, but before that I was sitting at work thinking to myself "What could I possibly do that would get noticed around here?" Why? Because I'm in constant fear that I will get fired.
I'm ready to go home, this spaceheater is giving me a friggin headache.
I saw a trailer for "Kingdom of Heaven" which as David Thewlis in it. Only a big deal for me...but it makes me happy. (Who is David Thewlis? He's Professor Lupin in HP and the prisoner of azkaban) What is exciting for me is that he's in the last couple seconds of the trailer talking to Orlando Bloom. *drool over the two hot guys*
On another dork note Gary Oldman is going to be in Batman Returns...and yes I like him too. Cept in Fifth Element where he has silly hair but I still <3 him.
Something for Korina: They are making movies from the book Chronicles of Narnia. The first movie is "The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe."
THERE IS A FREAKING CHILD RUNNING AROUND OUT IN THE LOBBY YELLING "YOU'RE FIRED!" OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND IF HE DOESN'T STOP I WILL KILL HIM.
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| | | ... | Date: 11.17.04 - 4:33pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Work
I've redeveloped my slight obsession with Yahoo Pool. My current score is 1264 and that because Dale was beating the crap out of me last night. I give my props to the pool master Dale. The guy I am currently playing is 1046...yea. The girl before didn't move the stick she just shot...yea...her score was 850. Poor thing. I was cleaning the kitchen today and got very high off "Oven off" fumes. I also completed my lifeguard training and now must take the test.... Connie and I are cleaning the grease trap tomorrow. Fun for all. Nikki is doing a 'port' something and just had a donkey in her store. :)
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| | | Brr that water is cold | Date: 10.27.04 - 7:43pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Concerts, Work
What's up my peoples? I have to be the most boring 21 year old on the planet. I haven't done anything in the past 3 days that require my id what-so-ever. My only day off this week (besides the concert saturday) is Sunday and I have a fun filled day of spending time with my grandma and grandpa. I was thinking that I would take them out to lunch or supper. I wanted to gambling with Connie and my mom sunday but I don't think Connie was too crazy about going... WISH NIKKI AND KORINA WERE 21. I MISS YOU KORINA!! Nikki dawn I do believe you possibly missed my last class of my water aerobics career. The women think Amy is coming back next week and I'm not doing it Thursday. I want to lap swim during the day but I have no one to do it with. I miss people....
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| | | In the middle of a gun fight in the center of a resturant they say come with your arms raised high. | Date: 10.23.04 - 1:50pm
Music: You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us in Prison -
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Family, Concerts, Work, Movies
The people having a birthday party at the beach today are a bunch of hicks. Imagine that. In Ottumwa? No! Never! Hicks? Racist Ignorant People?! No! So I'm sitting at work trying to find something to keep me busy, how lucky for you. I was trying to read the book Connie gave me this morning when I was helping her move. Connie, Connie has alot of stuff. Whoa. Erin came into work today thinking that she was the one working today...and this afternoon ...and tomorrow. I'm like no, the schedule in the office is permanent (direct order from FARM herself) and Erin doesn't work weekends anymore because she's inept to finding someone to cover and hold a rational management idea in her head. If your the only guard present you guard the pool and let someone else do admissions...most jobs take common sense...poor girl. Aerobics are going fine, the water is cold, but fine. The old ladies seem to like me along with the 3 girls from the Alternative High School that come down here for 'P.E.' Class. I'm a P.E. TEACHER!!! How cools is that? Wish I got a nice salary, but alas I don't. My family birthday party is tonight, that means I will be getting some $$ for tomorrow shopping with my mommy. I was thinking I would go to my dad's and hit him up before his druggie girlfriend get's my birthday money. The Northstar concert is 1 week from today and I couldn't be more excited. Everyone should go out and get themselves a Northstar cd and educate themselves. "Take a chance cuz you might grow" True dat Gwen. GO SEE THE GRUDGE... YOU'LL REGRET IT LATER. ;) I went to see it with Heather, Nikki, Dustin, Kevin, and my mom..wow that movie is freaky. I was praying that it was going to be over soon. The girl in it is creepy! **Spolier** BEWARE OF THE FREAKING BUS!!! OMG!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! **End Spolier** That movie was really good. I give them props for the freak out factor through the whole damn thing. They don't let you rest. Your like "Ahh..I nice easy going part with a cop, flashback, etc." BUT NO! They won't let you have that.
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| | | ....... | Date: 10.20.04 - 6:25pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Work
What can I say? Things have happened. You guys can come out and see me at the Haunted Hike. It's the 28th, 29th, and 30th at the basement of city hall....I don't think anyone who reads this isn't already going to be there working except for boe...so you've gotta come so we can scare you this year boe!!!!!! hmmmm let's see what else? Want to get in shape? I am being forced to teach a water aerobics class this witer Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday at 7pm..so you could come if you like.....NIKKI AND KAY!!!!!!!!!!
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| | | This weekend sucked. I can only imagine next... | Date: 08.13.04 - 7:16am
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Work
My weekend sucked because of someone at work...and we won't talk about that other than on Tuesday my BOSS came into the kitchen while I was cleaning and said "Would you like to work weekends for me? Friday, Saturday, and Sunday?" Me:"Yes! Of course I would" Her: "Well then I'll have Connie show you how to use the safe.." Yea, then bitch goddess that I work with takes this weekend because she thinks she's hot shit and can do the schedule. Hell no. I'm not going down that easy this year. I'm going to have a talk with Faithanne when I go in there in about 1/2 hour. Then comes Sunday. The day I was looking forward to for 2 weeks now. I wanted to go to Jordan Creek with Nikki, Kevin, Korina, Dale, Dustin, and my mom...so I warn everyone ahead of time...get this day off were going to Jordan Creek to have fun! Come Saturday my mom informs me she 'forgot' and is having her birthday party at 2:00 in the afternoon..so a no go on her... and my boyfriend comes to me "Oh I can't get it off". God I was pissed. Were going Thursday now. Just him and me and I'm going to finally get to see the movie I waited all weekend to see because I thought I was going to get to see it Sunday..I beginning to hate people and their wishy-washy ways.. So you say...what happened to Nikki, Kevin, Korina, and Dale? Well, they went and I didn't go because of the massive fight I just has with two of my loved ones and I didn't want to be ignored. No offense to them because I know they don't mean to do it...it just happens when your with your boyfriend. But Dustin redeemed himself when he came home from work bearing pink roses and white daisies. Good job D. (Thanks Nikki ;) )
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| | | Things | Date: 07.14.04 - 8:49pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Concerts, Work
Ok so I'm sitting here getting ready to go take a shower and I noticed that neither kay nor nikki updated their sites today or yesterday so I thought I would actually update my site for once. I just read a email from a girl that went to my site and lives in Jesse Lacey's home town..how exciting! And she told me that he has 6 siblings!! Whoa cow! I was going to take some goofy self pics with my new digital camera so I could update my hot or not picture and then post the extras on here, but I'm just not ready for anyone to see what I actually look like now other than the people that come here and actually know me. I need a hair cut.... I actually got up at 8:00 am this morning and went on a walk. That took alot of work. I'm obsessed with I <3 the 90's. Kay's mommy now knows about her tattoo. Ruh ro..she's mad. My goal by next Saturday is 80 hours. Whoa cow. I've got around 25 hours What else was going to tell you...? We have a countdown of 9 days till Warped Tour! Rock!
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| | | Nikki and Kay came to visit. | Date: 06.22.04 - 10:01pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Work
Kay and Nikki came over today, and Kay finally asked the guy she liked out. They are going to the movies tomorrow. Which means that I have to work all day. I'm fine with that. More hours for Laura! I'm not quite ready to take a day off work yet. When I catch up on all my debts I will take a day off. That will prolly be around August. Wish I wasn't #1 Chicken Shit
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| | | I'm watching Office Space again. | Date: 06.21.04 - 4:52pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Work
Went to work today..imagine that...I work everyday. I've got pictures of my new tattoo, it's just uploading them is going to take the work. I don't want to work anymore. I'm tired of the same bullshit almost every day. I wish kay didn't have school...So does she.
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| | | Ok...I died. | Date: 06.14.04 - 11:06pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Music, Concerts, Work, School, Movies
I swear I've gotten really lazy since I started work, but you have to give me credit that I work 7 days a week, been working on a robe, cleaning the house like crazy, and trying to make the most out of my last free summer. UPDATE THUS FAR: 1) A group of us are going up this Thursday to get our tattoos. Dale is going up with us...mind you the boy isn't getting a tattoo. I think he's just going to spend time with Kay...hehe 2) I got my skateboard, fell off it, fractured my elbow, and haven't gotten on it since out of fear of killing myself. *I will get back on it soon* 3) Kay <3 Dale 4) It's Nikki's 20th birthday and she rocks!!! 5) Ottumwa is going to flood and disappear from the face of the earth...no really...i swear. 6) I took the summer off from school because I'm super lazy and don't want to work and go to school. 7) The managers at work hate me and kay and have determined that they are going to use this summer to piss us off. 8) We don't care and we are doing everything in our power to piss THEM off. :D 9) Went to see HP 3 Friday June 4th at 12:05 am in Pleasant Hill, IA...and it rocked soooo hardcore. 10) I've finally finished HP 5, the book. Made me cry, bad book. 11) Kay has caught my HP fever and read 3,4,and is currently reading 5. 12) Warped Tour is 1 month and 4 days away and I still don't have my ticket. 13) Three boys almost have me convinced that I should go to Ozzfest. 14) I've almost convinced Kay that Snoop Dog isn't a good enough reason to miss LP this summer. 15) Rob Bourdon works at the beach. 16) NORTHSTAR STILL ROCKS! 17) Currently in the process of finding another book to read...any suggestions? Give me some comments it might inspire me to update more often. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIKKI I LOVE YOU!!!!! WELCOME TO 20!!!!
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| | | It's a new day. | Date: 05.19.04 - 4:33pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Work, School
I think my blog died because I haven't posted in a long time. I've been really busy at work plus it was finals week. Kay and I have decided that with our summer were going to build a mini skate park and learn how to board because we wanna. :P Were housesitting this week at my sister's house....:D:D
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| | | Ahh the week before finals week....yea.. | Date: 05.05.04 - 8:40am
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Music, Work, School
The time when everything is due and I've let myself slack so much that my passing depends all too heavily on my final test grades.. I love the pressure! Fall Out Boy is going to be in Des Moines. THAT'S RIGHT BABY! They have finally decided to come here. July 31st to be exact. Right after Warped when I'm going to be so concerted out that I can't breathe. I get paid tomorrow and it's yet another paycheck I don't get to myself. How exciting you say? Very! I forgot my headphones so I have to use Dustin's ...which they suck...but nothing but love for him. :)
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| | | Teen Titans rocks you | Date: 05.01.04 - 11:16am
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Work, Movies
I'm watching Teen Titans if you can't tell. No work for me today I don't think. It's been almost a week since I've been there...actually..it HAS been a week. Ruh ro.. I wonder if I passed that CPR test. Starfire and Raven switched bodies and they are learning to use each other's abilities. It's humerous and Raven is the coolest. I watched Bevis and Butthead for an hour today. My friend Korina once told me 'BRB' and she never did.. ACK OMG IT IT'S THE HARRY POTTER PREVIEW... ok. I swear I'm better now.
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| | | Canda only has 6 hours of gravity a day... | Date: 04.30.04 - 7:23pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Work, Movies
Yup, yup it's true. Dave Foley just told me that. I've been watching tv and doing homework ALL friggin day. I'm so exciting. I can't go to work because it's raining here and there is nothing left inside to clean. I've got to watch my one of my favorite movies today..that's right. The Secret Garden. I also like The Little Princess. I'm odd and like movies like that. I also enjoyed the book. I'm in the middle of Harry Potter 5...that's right. I've had the book for almost a year and I haven't finished it. I had to read 1,2,3,&4 before I could read 5. Harry Potter is so much better when you read it. You get so much more, but I'm excited to see the 3rd movie. Right before I was falling asleep the other night I saw a preview for it. It was the first preview I've seen on the tv. There is a very odd guy on madtv right now. My posts used to be funny....wonder what happened.
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| | | The Flu | Date: 04.28.04 - 3:56pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Work, School
In the famous words of Brian Lane from Brand New..."I think I have it..kill me" The wind is blowing like crazy here. My mom just had a new barn built and the wind is going to end up ripping the door off of it. I might buy us a horse..isn't that exciting? During the summer when I'm getting more hours I think I'm going to buy my mommy and me a horsie. :) We used to have 2 but one was mean and the good one died of old age. I like horsies. I need to finish my database and fix my cobol. Comments keep me company in my lonely hours..
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| | | old skool looney tunes rocks you | Date: 04.24.04 - 2:55pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Concerts, Work
Ok, so I lied. I thought that I would have to make out with a cpr dummy but I didn't. We just had to take a recertification challange test. We can get a max of 8 questions wrong...I think I got like 49 questions out of 50 wrong. I can't remember that crap from last year? Anyway who's going to crawl out of the pool and drag themselves to the kitchen and make me do cpr on them? I barely see any customers. The only thing I think we need to learn is first aid. Jake didn't show up for the cpr test and now he's going to have to take the class again. hehe. Shouldn't have been a lazy poop. I'm thinking of taking a nap because I'm bored and sleepy. I was going to make a Finch layout because I just can't get the other one to work. Anyone else going to warped?? Me! I am. I am so excited about Billy Talent I just can't contain myself. I guess I'll put off the nap and work on a layout because you all love me a post comments right? Yea that's right. You guys are going to comment because you love me..
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| | | And here we are to sing you a song... | Date: 04.07.04 - 10:14am
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Music, Work
I love Finch I do! We finished all the tubes yesterday and my cheeks (face ya perv :P) and lower back are sunburned. Well, they were last night, but now at 10:00 they are my regular (or irregular as some might think) pale color. Today it's going to be 75 degrees and sunny so that means I get another burn while were out cleaning lockers today. :) Comment because you love me and it encourages me to post. :D
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| | | Sparks fly I hit the ground running... | Date: 04.04.04 - 8:19pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Friends, Work, School, Movies
Ok so I've done nothing all weekend except watch movies with Korina which included the likes of Pieces of April (5 out of 5 stars), Looney Tunes Back in Action (3 out of 5), Pocohantas (5!!), The Sweetest Thing (5), and Minorty Report(4). Ok, so were not the most exciting people right now but you gotta give us a break.
I also watched Linkin Park: Frat Party at the Pancake Festival...which I highly reccomend you purchase because I've already run one copy into the ground and I'm working on the second copy...my frist DVD cover is signed by none other than the wonderful drummer Rob Bourdon and my second DVD is signed by the entire freakin band!! WOOOO LP ROCKS U!! Anyway...yea.
Off to school tomorrow then more work. Since it's supposed to be 70 degrees tomorrow I guess were prolly going to finish cleaning those damn tubes. Oh heres a funny little story. We spent a better half of 1/2 hour Friday stacking the clean tubes all nice and pretty before we left right?! Yea we did..they were in nice stacks of 6.... I just drove by after supper and saw that our nice stacks were gone...yea that's right..the freakin wind tipped them all over and you know what the best part is? I don't know where half of them went. Yea that's right I DON'T KNOW!!! THEY FLEW AWAY! The aren't anywhere near the rest of the tubes from what I could see. :'( I shed a tear for me and kay..
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| | | Harry Potter rocks you. | Date: 03.16.04 - 12:17pm
Music: none
Filed in: Daily, Music, Work, School
Did you ever notice on my titles a lot of things rock you? Yea, well...ya know. After lunch kay and I are off to get our jobs back from last summer cuz they rocked. Lot's of people are going to come back and work if we go back as managers. That makes me feel really good, and loved. I'm getting a little verclemped. Talk amonst yourselves...I'll give you a topic. Brand New is neither New or a Brand.
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